I was sitting in bumper-to-bumper traffic again, my Franklin planner balanced
upon the steering wheel, pen poised over the planner at a date a week or so
in advance, cell phone cradled on my shoulder, returning client calls and setting
up appointments. I could be found in this exact position during any given day
I spent as Territory Sales Manager for The Goodyear Tire & Rubber Company,
managing a client base in Chicago, Rockford and the border cities of Wisconsin.
It is not that I disliked my job. I gained valuable experience and training
that will serve me for the rest of my life. I made friendships with customers
and colleagues that I plan on maintaining for years to come. I made more
money than I knew had existed during college and had full use of a company
car, a
cell phone, a laptop and an expense account. Twice a year I went back to
Akron, Ohio, for training on themes that made me more effective in my work.
Generally, life was good. But sometimes I heard a voice inside me that was
becoming more insistent as the years went by. “Is there something else
OUT THERE?” it would ask. I brushed the voice aside until May 8, 2001.
My passion for languages and foreign cultures started young. When I was
seven, my parents participated in a hosting program for Europeans working
as camp
counselors at our local YMCA. I could never forget Ann, our first guest
from Switzerland, who spent long hours with me talking about her country
and its
customs. Hearing her speaking to her parents on the phone in her native
tongue fascinated me so much that I begged to take foreign language classes
at a
community college on Saturdays. I began taking French classes, dreaming
of living in
foreign lands and speaking the funny words I had been learning.
At Wittenberg, I took German to supplement my French classes and was
blessed with two amazing experiences abroad. I spent the summer of
1995 in Wittenberg,
Germany, and in 1997, I spent a semester in Freiburg, Germany. Through
these experiences, I realized the power of language as fellow Wittenbergers
told
me stories of Communism days, stories that I would never have understood
without speaking German. Traveling with my dear friend, Heather Ransom-Bodle ’98,
I experienced different cultures and places, communicating with people
we met in English, French and German.
Before returning to the United States in August 1997, I spent a couple
of days with my host family in Wittenberg, Germany. My host father
pumped me
for details
of my travels and enthusiastically asked questions. The last night
I spent there, he told me with tears in his eyes that he would never have
imagined
that the world would liberate itself from the armed guards, ferocious
dogs, imposing walls and barbed wire that had divided the east from
the
rest
of the world. He said that his dream was for his son, like me, to have
the opportunity
to roam the world and learn of different cultures and languages. That
night I began to realize how fortunate I am to be free, unencumbered
by borders.
I also realized that I had had an effect on a few peoples’ lives just
from sharing my experiences.
From that point on, I knew that I wanted to do something to “give back,” to
share my education and experiences with others in a way that might inspire
something within them. In August 2000, I began researching volunteer abroad
opportunities, a little more than two years after I graduated from Wittenberg.
A brief trip to Barcelona, Spain, and a fascination with the predominantly
Mexican migrant workers I encountered throughout Chicago fueled my desire to
learn Spanish. Shortly after moving to Chicago, I began taking Spanish classes
at night at the local college so that when I wrote “Latin America” as
my choice region on the Peace Corps application, I met the language requirements.
I am now a Peace Corps volunteer in the small business sector in
Jinotega, a community in the north-central mountains of Nicaragua.
I remember
the first month or so here, sweltering in the most intense heat
I’d ever known
and wondering how I’d ever accomplish anything when all I wanted to
do was lie in the shade. I recall trying to turn on the faucet and, bewildered,
thinking it was broken when no water came out of it. Now it is a shock if
any
water DOES come out of the pipe. And most of all, when I first arrived, I
was completely lost trying to pick out even a word of what people might be
saying
to me. With time, though, came Spanish skills, then relationships with people
based on limited understanding and gestures, then real conversations with
substance and even workshops and seminars where I am now the teacher.
I have found my time here rich with experiences that have helped
me to grow as a person. My Peace Corps experience has already
changed my perspective
for the rest of my life, and I maintain the hope that I can give
back
to the wonderful
people I have met here at least some of what they have given
me.
Many of us do not realize the effect experiences and other people
have on us until later on in our lives. So many times during
this past year
I have
drawn
upon the knowledge I have gained from people who have influence
me. Sometimes it is as simple as looking for a different way
to relate
something to
someone or putting together something confusing in my own mind.
To do this, I find
myself drawing upon a conversation or an experience I had long
buried in my memory and failed to think about, often for years.
Many of
the people
who have
influenced my life, I have lost touch with years ago, so they
will probably never know that something they said or did sticks
out
in my memory even
now.
That is one of the reasons why I believe in what I am doing
here in Nicaragua. I often hear the criticism that Peace Corps
volunteers
take
with them
more than they give to the locals they are sent to teach. While
this may be
true, I have realized that the effects we have on others cannot
be measured, identified,
or sometimes even predicted.
I hope that somehow something I say or do during my time here
will have a positive effect on someone, as others have had
on me. However,
like
them, I may never
know the impression I made on the person or the effect that
came about because
of it. Though it is sometimes frustrating because my results
are so intangible, that is what keeps me motivated and full
of hope
as I work
amidst the
poor of Nicaragua.